ciy thoughts

so last week we went to a conference down in Tennessee. It was probably the 8th time i have been to ciy, and it was a very interesting week. There was a different vibe and feel to this week comparing it to the week that we went on last year. For some reason it just felt different, i think the main reason i felt that there was a different vibe, was because there was someone missing from the trip that has been there for a long time. the reason seems kind of weird, and in my mind some what awkward, but when there is someone there for that long of a time and things are done in the same way, change is a very scary and hard thing.
there were some hard times, great times, funny times, and lots of other times, but i think the best thing that came out of this week was that the group that went to ciy seemed to group together and form a cohesive group of students that all want too grow together and grow deeper than they ever have been before.
one of the things that i love about ciy is how much the week messes with people not only spiritually but physically and emotionally. There is always some weird drama, or weird happenings that always go down. this week, i think the largest drama factor was the fact that one person was not there. It created a weird vibe that made people act differently that i think they would have not been that way if someone else was there.
hey but that is ok, becuase i was feeling the same way. the weird thing is that it seems like not only did the vibe change, the way things were done changed. Im not saying that things were done bad, but it seemed like decisions could be harder than they should have been come time, because we wanted to make decisions as a group, and it became a time where people would butt heads more than we should. BUT THATS OK!
change is a hard thing to work through, and deal with especially when you are used to one person making decisions and being able to take the brunt of whatever is coming at the ministry.
change is a very hard thing to deal with, but the even harder part about change is the anticipation of who the next person will be. the next person could scare a lot of people especially if the new person is going to come in and change everything. I understand exactly how people are feeling, especially the people on this trip. the one thing that comes to my mind though, is that people need to learn that change is going to happen, anywhere you are in life. change is always going to be hard and change is always going to make you upset and act a little differently when it comes to not knowing how to react to change.
so change is hard, but i know what it is like to go through change, and i understand the emotion that comes with change. so for anyone that may read this, i want you to know that i want to help, and i want to care and talk to anyone who is having a hard time with this transition. i may not have all the answers but, i know that i can give enough hugs, or conversation about any of this crap that is going on.
i hope you take the offer, i'm ready
peace out.........